When/ If you ever leave my body…
Even when you’re happy it hurts.
Even when you laugh it hurts.
The worst kind of hurt is knowing that even if he changes, you won’t reconsider because it hurts.
the hurt becomes normal and you go on living as though all you could remember feeling is desolation.
Consciously trying to pass every moment without a thought of him.
It is over. But will THIS ever be over?